I’ve been reading and re-reading my last post. I have been struggling to remain in the ‘now’ because so much of my life has been spent planning for ‘what’s next.’ While I am still able to enjoy this traveling, in the back of my mind I have been fearful about my finances. Now, I know there are tons of ways to travel for less, I could do work-a-ways, volunteer, and house sit but that’s not how I want to travel and I’m enjoying this time with my daughter because I am able to work while she’s sleeping.
When I was in Barcelona I couldn’t work because the internet was unstable. I was able to teach my independent students at the nearby McDonalds, and now that I am in Italy, I am having the same problem with internet stability. So, today, I put in my resignation with the online company I work(ed) for. It was unfair to the company, the students, and the parents to have them sign up for classes that I couldn’t teach.
The thing is, when I saw that the portal wouldn’t load due to a low bandwidth, I had a mini panic attack, then it subsided, and a moment of clarity passed…I don’t need to work as much as I used to. My finances are fine. I can focus on the future and enjoy the present. I just have to trust myself.
Working for myself allows me to have a flexible schedule, I get to set my own pay – there’s no middle party getting a percentage and I have direct communication with my students. So, yeah, I quit one of my three jobs today, but now I can be content with the riches I possess.
(I still work for another online company editing papers and revamping resumes but I’ve been working with them since 2008, I still need a side job and I don’t have a set schedule. It’s hard to break old habits. Since I was 16 I’ve always had multiple jobs/side hustles).
What does this mean?
I need to focus on my independent students. At one point I had t enough students to cover my monthly expenses (plus my other jobs) but due to some scheduling I had to drop most of them. Now, I need to go back to marketing and recruiting OR it means I need to focus on other ventures and opportunities. I’m making lemonade out of these lemons. I am being forced to focus on the other goals and dreams I wanted because I’m not working for someone else’s company.
I’m just going to do it and what will be will be.